Thursday, January 29, 2015

Let Go Of What You Cling To Ⅱ

Hello. I'm Kazu who translates Mr. Sato's words into English.

On my previous blog, I introduced Mr. Sato's approaches to let go of what you cling to. Today, I'll write about my own experience of letting go of my attachment to my daughter.

When I look back on my past, my mother used to be a very loving person, but at the same time she was overprotective, because she was worried too much about me and my sister. I had a disciplined upbringing.

I think I inherited her predisposition, and I had also been worried about my children  all the time without knowing. Those worries varied from their relations with friends, score at school, to their far-distant future.

That means that I had a strong desire or wish for my children with my ideals that I was obsessed with.
When my daughter was in the 1st grade, an unforgettable event happened to me.

My daughter suddenly refused to go to school without any reasons. It was just before summer and it lasted for several months.

I asked her the reason why she couldn't go to school every day, but all she answered was that she didn't want to leave my side.

She actually seemed to be sick every morning. I had no idea what to do..  Then, I was fortunate enough to have a chance to ask advise from Mr. Sato. However, what he said to me was just stunning!!

Mr. Sato said, "Mrs. Tani, she is all right on her own, because she is not your child, but is a child of God." (The word "God" here doesn't mean any religious god, but the perfect consciousness or true nature inside of her)

I was shocked by his words!  And I said to myself, "Yes, she is my daughter whom I gave birth to!"
I remember that I was totally at a loss what to do on my way back.
                                           (to be continued...)